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Spiders

I don’t really believe in dream interpretations, but sometimes they just hit the spot. Last night, I had two dreams. Both having some sort of spider around me. Wait. I think I had three dreams. I don’t remember. But I remember at one point, the spider was in my bed and I was scaring it away but I couldn’t and I ended up waking up from my dream (THANK GOD).

So I got really pissed and I googled it on my phone. And I got this.

SPIDERS : Spiders are a little like snakes in that they usually refer to something bad in your life. They will usually refer to some situation where you feel trapped or stuck. Perhaps you dislike your job and wish to move to something more interesting. Perhaps you feel stuck in a relationship. Just think of those emotions about being caught in a spiders web. Where do you feel that same sense in real life or been unable to move.

QUESTIONS to help you make associations(pick the one that makes most sense to you)
- Do you feel stuck in some relationship?
- Are there some responsibilites that are holding you back?
- Do you feel unable to escape some situation or relationship?
- Are you wanting to make a decision but unable to right now?
- Do you feel trapped right now?

KEY WORDS : Stuck, trapping, depression, lack of freedom, responsibilities holding you back, unable to escape, wary(write down some quotes that capture your key feelings on issues that have been dominating your mind. Then see if any of these words could appear in those quotes)

ESSAY : What is the symbolic meaning of spiders in dreams?

In many cases the spider may refer to a overbearing mother or some other dominant figure who tries to control your life. E.g.

And there it was, the meaning behind it all. Yesterday, I went to an interview at a some company and I spent half the day there. It was okay, until I got to meet the person who was supposed to be my boss and man was she ANNOYINGLY BITCHY. Not bitchy-bitchy like teenage girls/women. In her own way, she’s like that. I would’ve been more open to taking the job if my boss would be nice and cool even with the low pay. But meeting her definitely changed my mind. It was the most uncomfortable interview I’ve ever went to. And I really couldn’t wait to get out of their while we were talking. It felt like I was being interrogated. She seemed pissed/not happy when I couldn’t remember names of people in the media industry who I’ve gotten in contact with in the past. I mean, why would I remember those when its already been a year since I talked to them. I can smell she was fishing if I would be a help to her if I knew a lot of people. Geez louis.

Anyway, when Mom dropped by later that night with the things I left in her car, I told her all about it and how I don’t want to take that anymore. She kept on insisting that I should take it anyway. Obviously I wouldn’t and I got really upset because she was pushing it to my face. I don’t want to take another job where I won’t be happy AGAIN. This time I want to make it right and I won’t let my decision be influenced by people around me.

Whatever my next job would be, I’ll stick to it. I’ll also be managing a small business on the side, so I guess that would be enough to be able to save up and pay for rent and stuff.

I actually felt better after seeing what my dreams meant.

Bad day

I woke up today with a brain-splitting headache and the urge to throw up. Its probably because I overslept (yet, again) but I find it no different from other days when I would even wake up around 2 o’ clock in the afternoon. I have planned the day already. I was supposed to spend it with my neighbor, Yen, who lives downstairs. We’d have lunch at Ababu then go over to Tiendesitas to look at some puppies. But because of the state I found myself in, I couldn’t even get dressed.

She was actually with me already, talking about the plan. She went back to their place to change, which was what I was supposed to do when she left. I texted her saying that I will just condition myself before we go so I won’t ruin our day. But it didn’t get any better. I ate some cereal so that I could take a medicine prescribed to me by a doctor from Medical City a few months back when I was rushed in because of my migraine. Unfortunately, I found myself vomiting all I ate after a few minutes. I waited for a couple more minutes until I tried to eat something again so I can finally take my meds. I ate around 4 spoons of cereal and drank my medicine. I really tried to keep it all down so the medicine can kick in. But I couldn’t and I threw up again.

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Sleeeeeeep!

My body clock has been awful. Sleeping sometimes at 3 o’ clock in the morning or past it, then waking up around 10 o’ clock, falling asleep again, then waking up again around 2 in the afternoon. What the hell.

I seriously need to start sleeping right.